Wednesday, July 24, 2013

The Beginning Of My Single Life's Ending

Question: How do you know you’re all about someone?
Answer:  When a new person you just met laughs at you because she says you ‘sound so in love with your girlfriend.’

Well, here’s your fair warning, fellas.  Don’t bother reading the rest of this if you don’t desire to be in a relationship.  Believe me, I totally get it.  So much so that for about a decade I was bound and determined to not get bit by the love bug.  I was perfectly happy being single and honestly was convinced that I would be single for the rest of my life.  I celebrated this fact all the time, telling anyone who would listen about the benefits of singleness and why my life was better than a married person’s life.  There is definitely still some truth in that and I have the Scriptures to back it up if someone wants to argue about it.  However, something has changed in my heart and mind over the past year and a half or so, starting around 4 months before the time I turned 30 ironically.

I can remember the specific moment that things started to change if you’d like to hear about it.  You’re reading my blog so I’m going to go ahead and assume that even if you don’t want to hear about it you’ll at least excuse me to do so as I try and wrap my mind around what has happened in my life over the last year and a half or so.  It was January of 2012 and I had just moved into my parents’ new investment property that they had just bought.  My mom had come down to help me furnish the place so it wouldn’t look like a total bachelor pad right off the bat.  I can distinctly remember her calling my dad to talk over the phone when we were finished working on the house for the day.

It finally occurred to me, and looking back it should’ve occurred to me much earlier, that my mom and dad simply cared for each other.  They were genuinely interested in hearing how each other’s day had gone.  The reason this should’ve occurred to me much earlier was because I grew up with having them as an example of a beautiful marriage.  Don’t get me wrong, they went through their rough patches I’m sure just like everyone else does.  They were very careful as I have learned since being out of the house, to never fight in front of my brother and me.  This was especially true in our early childhood, but I think they just decided to keep with it as we got old because although I remember a few times of my brother or I getting reprimanded, I sincerely don’t remember a single instance of them fighting with each other in front of us.

As I said, I’m sure they had their rough patches and still do to be sure as in married couple does, but that doesn’t take away from them genuinely caring for one another and each other’s needs and desires.  My mom has joked before that she’s not so sure she wants my dad to ever retire.  If he goes for more than about 4 days at any given time without working at all, he’s liable to go crazy at least on some level.  Mom jokes that he would cause her to go insane if he didn’t go to work every day.  Honestly, I can’t see him as ever being retired for any length of time myself.  I’ve joked with friends that I see him taking about 3-4 months of traveling, maybe around New Zealand as that’s been his dream with mom for when they retire, but after 4 months the poor guy will be bored out of his mind. 

If you’re reading this, don’t worry too much dad, I’ve got some ideas for you to consider when it gets closer to the time of retirement.  I can hear you cackling now and mom laughing too, but don’t laugh too much!  You always like to say how Grandma B. and I seem to have a fairly strong connection with the Big Guy upstairs and rest assured I’ve been laying down my ideas for your retirement at His feet.  You better be prepared for some big things, that’s all I’m going to say about that for now.  I don’t want to give away too much right now, just know that it’s going to be good.

Where do I begin with my mom?  She has always been a rock by my side when I’ve gone through various struggles growing up and on into nowadays.  Dad has always said she has been the glue that got us through the difficult times growing up, and I couldn’t agree more.  My dad rightfully admires her, although he does like to tease her, a fair amount, something Steffani will have to learn to love because I certainly come by it fairly honestly on both sides. 

For a while in college and in the years following that, my friends would ask me about my parents and I’d lovingly share how they were complete opposites in my opinion but just made it work in their marriage.  Now either I’ve started to change how I view each of them as individuals or they’ve started to change in their respective personalities.  I remember getting a basic outline of my Grandpa’s funeral when he passed a couple years ago in my email.  I balled like a baby when I read that and still do to this day which is why I don’t open that word doc very often.  Anyways, in it the man who had prepared it mentioned how people never really knew my grandparents apart from each other.  They were simply known as John and Shirley.

Isn’t that the point of marriage?  A friend of mine relayed to me the sad story of one of her friends getting divorced because of some ridiculous reason along the lines of, “We had started to lose our personality as individuals.”  My friend told me she had reflected on that a little bit and quickly reached to conclusion that it was kind of the point, wasn’t it?  I mean, two become one is kind of the overall picture we’re given in Scripture, right?

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